I'm fairly new to FA, and becoming happy with my body is an ongoing project. My last post was (from just a few days ago), explained the revelation of looking at my body in the mirror and not hating everything I see, I've written about the way I've treated my body in the past, and how I hope never to disrespect it like that in the past. But I'm still calling my body "it". My body isn't an "it", it's me. When I'm hating what I see in the mirror, I'm not hating an external Body, I'm hating myself. When I'm hurting my body, I'm hurting myself.
Disrespecting my body is disrespecting myself.
So now I face the issue of dismantling the 'mind-body' split: Something, incidentally, which I have never believed in intellectually - as a student I used to think (and I still do think) writers who believed that the mind was something separate [and implicitly better] than the body were deluding themselves into human superiority. (I have a degree in Philisophy don't 'cha know). I know that I get physical symptoms when something's wrong psychologically (my panic attacks have always manifested themselves like stomach flu). And yet it's taken me 10 more years from knowing and believing these things to even recognising that I unconsciously acted as if I believed in this delusion, let alone tackling the problem.
There are changes I'm going to have to make to break out of this now-conscious social training. I've got to look after myself, in a much less perfunctory way. I need to be remembering that in order to be healthy I have to nourish and care for my mind and my body. I need to harmonise myself, retune my mind into my body. To train myself to believe, consciously and unconsciously that mind and body are one.